Mystery Guy

Dreams and memories of what could have been,The past means nothing to me and then everything at the same time. It's made me who I am, and i'm glad I know but if I could change the past would I be so quick to do so? I want to have it all but the future never whispers not even a little bit I want to know it's secrets. I am left in the dark about what and where I will be the future no tears that promise pain so I don't know if I will get hurt. It's just that I can't help thinking about you and how different I would probably be if you knew that one secret that I held so close to me for so long that when it was time it was too late. I may spend eternity looking for someone exactly like you, it's because my conscience will never let me forget how good a person you were. I was so deep into you that i'd lose myself in the moment and I have never felt that way before and I don't know if I will feel it again. Just waking every morning knowing that I would get to see you again, Oh it was such a feeling and now I can't even remember how it felt. Searching for that guy again with my whole heart and my whole soul... even if it turned out bitter I just wish I could know. I hate living in regret, I hate living in my head. It's filled with empty promises and dreams that are so far away I can't even feel them. I want to touch, this time i'm not afraid if only you could appear one day then maybe I would get my second chance. Reality is so much better than anything I could pretend so when the time comes I will jump into that mystery guys arms and fly free for that moment.