Mommy Dearest

So many nights I layed and cried. Longing to have you in my life. But, everytime is always the same, you always leave me the blame! So many times because of you I have wanted to die. Yes! I contemplated my suicide! Anytime I have needed you by myside, you tuck tail and hide. You always have told me you wished I was never born. Well, guess what I was born. I never asked to be brought into this world, So many times you have made me cry because, of all the things you have said and tried. So many times you have pushed me to that edge, to where I wished I was dead! I always wondered how you would act if I was dead! You say that I am dead to you,well maybe I should make your dream come true! Maybe I should just end it all right now and comit suicide and go to hell. If I get to hell before you do, I will save you seat in the front two! So, keep playing your childish games for I am going to remain the same. So Mommy Dearest, how would feel if I were to end it all right here! Oh, wait Mommy Dearest! You would not care for you are not amother just a worthless piece of air!