2. It's a Great Day To Be Alive (How Much More Am I Expected To Take?)

My final exit will one day come for me, but when I die I'll die alone, anonymously. My true loved ones won't grieve. They won't have any reason to. They'll live their lives believing, I'm still living mine the way I sincerely want to. You may think this way of life a joyless, lonely one. You may be right but I'm convinced it's my only safe one. A solitary life is the only way of life available that works for me. Only when I'm home alone do I ever truly feel any sense of serenity, but then there's a knock on my door or my telephone rings and I'm faced with more tragedy. I sincerely can't take another loss. I feel it would be the end of me. Official Notice: On my birthday in the year 2010 I will "die" and never see or hear from my loved ones again. Please don't be mad and please don't be sad. I'll still be living my life. I won't really be dead. True Happiness it seems is beyond my dreams, but True Solitude can offer me some joy and serenity instead.