03-20-08

One starry skied night, I lay in the grass Reflecting on relationships, people of years past And then I see her: walking down heaven's steps The memories rushed back, as if she never left My eyes tear up, and I tell her "I miss you" Her smile illuminated the night, and replied "I miss you too" I asked "Do you hate me for how things ended?" She answered, "We're all human: maybe thats what God intended" I explained that I regret all my mistakes She chuckled as a tear trickled down her face She told me "I've never been more proud of you I sometimes wish I could leave heaven for you" I held her hand and looked into her angelic eyes I had to ask, "Did you think I was different from other guys?" She said "With you, there were no other guys You were, and always will be, my everything Although I know, you'll probably call some other lucky girl your everything I came see you to let you know I love you" I replied "I love you too" This moment couldn't be true I said, "Could you stay with me forever?" She replied, "No, but you could talk to me whenever Heaven's not too far away I promise you'll be okay Not only is God watching, I'm watching you too Just know your in my heart whatever you do" The stairway to heaven appeared, she said "I have to go" I beckoned for her to stay, but I had to let her go Before she departed, she gave me a kiss I cried, but I smiled; I needed this I watched her take step by step I could feel her leaving; breath by breath My soul then came to terms with her time limit She'll always be mine; body and spirit. In case you're wondering, the "she" i'm referring to is my ex-girlfriend Jonera Auriel Raymond, who was killed (along with her brother) by a drunk driver on March 20, 2008.