terracotta

there is a crack in everything that’s where the light gets in or eternal waters to soak up sorrow and flood fertile grounds solid meaningful foundations at least and at last he did not submerge his pain in distilled spirits instead took a path and commitment to a spiritual solution a seeker one day at a time when he finally surrendered himself to a Higher Power stopped playing God and dissected his Ego he wept silent tears floodgates opened and all star dust turned into mush he knew he could not choose the colour of his life boat all chakra’s hues turn into white once he would let go reason did not suffice for reaching composite faith so he prayed for his emotions to follow his thought dialectic synthesis please let my character defects dissolve do away with my fears as they served their purpose to identify wreckage and carnage crisis point the vital force presented him with emptiness and to a degree relief from a daily unease of being himself and no other uncomfortably numb the door had been opened and while the hinges still creaked with no turning back he asked for something to fill the void questionable success engulfed by pain hurt loneliness confusion unrest and discomfort it was strange that there were no anger depression nor resentment hiatus his wife is a psychic who feels and sees not just in words an earth angel and kind witch and he sought her advice I see you at the cusp of an abyss in a desert in a storm throwing down terracotta soldiers with great volatile force it is dark but I can see you quite clearly in anxious repose there is water with no fish algae nor plankton and there is just sufficient oxygen to breathe enough for your purpose and well there is a light in the distance as you may be aware his normal response would have been to seek an instant solution intellectualize solve the riddle move on but he paused sought solace in meditation surely his thinking suggested Egocide and overcoming the shadows but all he knew was that he would not jump from the cliff hanger pose he was no soldier and wars cannot be won Tarot insinuated for Death Tower and Hangman all good cards for they prepare for new beginnings growth change and a journey steps and destination when he gave gratitude to impermanence Terracotta and light his doubtful candle started to flicker with such power and force no hurricane would ever extinguish the quest he prayed with his psychic lover who only wanted him to be himself and he knew he was a little bit closer now that the terracotta was gone