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Schizophrenic Portrait

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Written: May 09, 2024

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A diaphanous shroud on my cranium.
It's worn down to the cram
It's a reprieve from my madness.
& now I clench my jaw.
My head aches from lunacy.
I crave calm to drown out voices
destroying everything I hold dear
I will devote a bullhorn
to let my tone be heard
& let it reverberate
covert from the world's gaze,
A battle rages deep inside
I've led my troops to war
alas, battling for a perilous blitz, 
They swiftly grasped their sword
ready to slice me up,
However, a white flag soared high.
 
A gawky, curly-topped redhead,
wearing a drab cloak
feeling low & depressed. 
with wretched winters within
white air mist adorned an asylum aura,
bubbling, blistering bolts
through her spurred veins,
schizophrenia is veiled
In her woolen socks, scaring
drifting through a coma cloud
Insulin and lobotomy with an icepick
an award for literary eminence 
sprung to mind.

You touched me from 
an abyssal sun
I am a hybrid of Adonis, 
Apollo and Dionysus
I love poetic & evocative music
& I embody a vast 
spherical harmony, 
I am both humane & ethereal
with choreographed equilibrium
that swings as a pendulum 
in a tantric zen vertex.
Here I stand, alone
with a variety of personas,
& amorphous whispers 
that has made me wonder
rhetorical schizophrenia, 
akin to that of a shaman
I've come up with a lot
fictitious & 
iconic pseudonyms, 
and I can be seen 
as a species, ape, or human, 
experiencing despondency 
or manic swings. 
It's a schizophrenia maze
a tedious anodyne haze
that creates a soporific daze.

In my zeal, Irises converse,
they whisper sweet tunes. 
whilst bees buzz,
around them, creating 
a mystical dance of roots
these roots are rhizomatous
and have been released
from the obnoxious grip 
of hidden chains
a waltz is performed
of iron accompanied 
by an opus flail whiplash 
that rips my flesh
and tears on my inner face
I frolic in the gloom. 
amongst orchids
wasps buzz softly 
while my bosom warms up,
and pollen becomes plentiful.
I find solace in his secure 
haven rather than 
an infused hell-scape,
ten-foot mirror-prism walls 
near the prison
providing a peculiar panopticon
fluorescent mall lights 
shine bright as gray guardians 
comply with me.
My brain whispers
holding shape-shifting cosmic spirits
my brain is punctured
a cloud of reality-scented air fell
inflated by fits of hysteria spell
of erratic salience quill
whilst floodgates of dopamine swell
my cranial seams are bursting
slipping into hopscotch psychosis as well
as if a pin plummets. 

Copyright © | Year Posted 2024




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Date: 5/19/2024 8:55:00 AM
Dear Sotto, your powerful poem creates heart-wrenching verses that are raw yet beautiful, capturing with vibrant imagery and metaphors the want to escape the hell-scape of schizophrenia. So evocative and emotive, a masterwork, my poet friend. Congratulations for your win in Brian's contest. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
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Date: 5/12/2024 3:22:00 PM
SP, I was looking at the statistics. About 0.45% of the global population of young adults has this disorder. Your poem expresses just how troubling it is for these unfortunate individuals. It's not a pleasant affliction for them.
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Date: 5/9/2024 10:00:00 PM
This poem is a deep exploration into the layers of a deranged mind and the complexities of feelings it encounters everyday. The type of people I sympathize most are those who suffer from schizophrenia who are caught in a labyrinth of choking emotions. Their life is a tightrope walk between sanity and insanity. They yearn for calm, but cannot have it when a thousand bees buzz inside. The internal battle some fight without being branded as Schizophrenic is even more despairing. Like a psychologist, you have delved deep into the vagaries of their mind with deep compassion and understanding. "My brain whispers holding shape-shifting cosmic spirits my brain is punctured a cloud of reality-scented air fell inflated by fits of hysteria spell." The complexities of an insane brain is so powerfully mirrored here. This poem is no doubt a classic.... so profound and penetrating!
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Date: 5/9/2024 11:29:00 AM
Dear Sotto, What a powerful exploration of mental struggle. The - the shroud, the asylum, the soporific daze. You capture the internal battle with raw honesty, the voices, the "perilous blitz." But there's also a fight back, a yearning for calm, a "white flag" of hope. It's a complex journey, beautifully told. - Blessings, Daniel
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