Disorientation
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10/02/23
Pick a title vol. 39
Second Place
Contest by Edward Ibeh.
DISORIENTATION
Me always disoriented both in real life and in dream land.
Simple stupidity follows me :
Feeling embarrassed to admit
my road sense is not nil but negative.
I get puzzled, even going to our local market
and very often I am misguided to choose
false direction, as if put in a maze !
Basically I carry street nervousness throughout life.
To board wrong bus or train
not to find out exact address even for known places
is very common happenstance in my journeys.
I feel uneasy to travel alone.
By nature I am smart, also recognised so
by my friends and associates.
Yet I am not comfortable to go to an unknown place on my own.
I behave straightforward, never shy.
My sister eleven years younger than me is too introvert.
When I was twenty two, l started
for interviews to get job.
I used to take my sister of half age of mine with me,
though that was an extra burden to escort a minor girl.
In most familiar places generally I have no confusion.
I walk free aiming to a fixed purpose .
But I can’t walk single, leisurely without any need.
A strange depressive feeling embowers me :
Is there none to accompany me ! Am I alone !
Then I feel sick.
This disorientation is very awkward and has no explanation
in my life style.
I was daily passenger in train during my college life
and also regularly availed of train and bus
when in service and faced frequent problems.
In my dream land I always target a wrong destination.
I never found out way to be back to my own home.
It is so scary, I get lost almost in every night.
In dream land I am bound to go to some place.
Inevitably I had to roam indefinite
and in vain tried and tried failing to select
right transport or right direction.
This type of night mare is my life long companion.
I get relief only when I wake up from dream.
Reaching last phase as I am analysing
my bygone days, I have found out
all failures as endured or incorrect decisions taken
sprouted from misconceptions caused
by disorientation of brain !
I am rational, analytic holding strong self confidence
Yet I suffer from some disorder,
some sort of improper function of thought process
originating from this unexplained disorientation.
Copyright © Anisha Dutta | Year Posted 2023
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