Within These Walls

Always closing the window, cursing someone's shadow. Always alone,left with nothing to do. within these walls, I'm simply blue. It's a place where I remember my past. A smile that didn't last. It's where I can dream,write and sing. But He's the only one witnessing. within these walls I let everything out. My anger,my tears,my desires but can never let it out. and w/ a paper and a pen, writing it all down, the question of "How & when?" within these walls I hide my light. The beauty,the madness & the serenity,kept it here every night. what are my chances in this shallow world? who will awaken me in my own little world? Am I just in disguise outside these walls? should I chase m,y dreams & answer all His signs & calls? One day I know that within these walls will be shown. And I'll be prepared to share it to the world & let others be blown. But now is not the time,so I'm gonna stay here for awhile. let my songs,poems & time heal my next journey in a mile. because for now,within these walls is a secret & a mystery. But I swore to myself that someday when I step out,I'll be ready.