Why Mom

To this day I wonder Why mom? Why did you have to leave your only daughter for all those men? Wasn’t our happiness enough? I was still trying to deal with not having a dad at all Though I wanted a dad That did not mean I wanted you to go on a thousands dates, and bring one man home I wanted my real dad I wanted a real family that knew me better than I would ever know myself But I guess what I wanted did not matter to you mom I have suffered major depression A hole in my heart that the doctors are unable to see They see I am going threw a lot of pain Though the one thing they can’t see is how much it is hurting my heart Every night as I lay in bed I think that my life will get better I will be wanted someday By a mom and a dad that will actually care about me Well guess what my dad The one you told me wanted nothing to do with me Wanted something to do with me and tried to see me as much as he could But you kept saying no to him Causing my little heart enough pain I was only three years old and eventually got older Why would you do this to me? If you ever want me to forgive you than think this though mom I have suffered all my nights crying in pain because I didn’t have a mom nor a dad While other girls were laughing, talking about boys, talking about what girls talk about Since you were always out I never had anyone to talk to about anything so I cried my eyes out like a waterfall that will never stop So to be forgiven you will need to think about how much pain you have caused me You will also need to be a real mom, don’t worry about buying all that make up You are pretty on the outside and the inside can change eventually But do this one thing for me Take care of my little sister Rylie she deservers a better life than I’ve ever gotten