Why God

My heart is purred clean, I feel like I am guide in a wrong direction, Why is it the world we live, so harsh? Why do people lie in your face? Why God isn't there when when you need Him the most? I am tired of waiting! It's been 5 years, nothing has changed! I am tired of knocking on the wrong doors. Every time I look for you I get discourage! Where are you? Why do you send me to people who don't care? Shouldn't life be fair? My feet are stuck in the mud, I feel like I can't go no where! I hate to live here! I want to be in a place that I can call home, I want to be around people who cares about others, All I see is lies and false advertisement! I am tired of chasing life to make it my way! All I ever wanted was small things, That makes me happy! That you take away from me! Why are you doing this to me? What am I supposed to learn? Why am I supposed to wait?