Why Did I Ever Love To Begin With?

Who I to give my heart heart away to have it broken like plates shatterong to the floor? and my biggest mistake was I allowed myself to love and have it ripped and torn to shred, now basically my heartACHES; how do I mend back a broken heart that has been mended to a point where it can no longer be mended anymore. Why did I ever love to begin with when my life was better of single; I will not cry over you because of a life's lesson learned, I wish I never put myself in the situation to put myself up just to be slapped right back down. I am overly misunderstood by by evryone and I hate I started to see myself with you for the rest of my life; I see I made a mistake thinking what I did and I know in my gut that you don't ever want anything to do with me anymore. Everytime we pass by we act as if we never existed to each other because as far as speaking terms are concerned, it was never meant to be, it was meant for us to go our seperate ways and start seeing other people; sometimes the things of life can never be changed.