Where Is My Secret Admirer

Who has stolen my heart, a love that cannot be extinguished. My heart is desperate to love him and yet he does not love me, Why? He was the one who ran after me, and I fell for him, and now that he no longer wants me: The world should end. How do I go on knowing he does not belong to me, but my heart belongs to him, which he does not want. I no longer see spectrum of wonderful and vibrant colors of life, but only black and white. Life seems meaningless everything should be become lifeless. I feel lost in the midst of my confused emotion - I am lost in the sea of unbridled love for a man I do not know, and I also do not know how to be loved by one. How I yearn to be hugged and kissed with so much passion that would make me lost in his strong arms forever. When is he going to melt my heart with his, or am I hoping for the impossible to be love by him. How my heart belongs to him... where are you my secret admirer. God made me loved him so he should love me back, please because my heart will stop beating because I lost his love. Please save me Jehovah God because I am sinking in the sea of despair by him not showing me love, so God where is my life's buoy or better yet my 'secret admirer.