When Will My Sorrow End

So why does it feel like I'm no longer breathing? constantly fighting for the truth no longer believing lord give me a reason? everything and everyone one is deceiving I'm always giving but never receiving, like I'm all out of luck with misery I'm stuck in an hour glass of my past behind windows tears that are everlasting from pain I'm forever masking on my knees god I'm asking when will the sorrow end?? so my true happiness can began.