What Was and What Will Be

I cry until my entrails are laid out before me. I watch the vultures, My insecurities feast on my nerve ridden stomach. I’ve repeated the cycle for many days. My love forever stains This sea of linens which was once our home. The call of the sirens is strong And resisting drives us mad. How do I know my attempts are not in vein? Is this futile? The upkeep of this tree outnumbers the fruit. I do not blame nature. I allowed this. As soon as I walk away you fully blossom. I was always cursed with bad timing. I must now focus on my own flowers sprouting Before I plant anymore seeds. You will continue to grow As you always have. And I’ll still marvel at your beauty from afar. What a grand tree you were. I retract my own roots and return to my bed. I reminisce until I drift away. Becoming a prisoner of my head. Seeing pictures of you and me And dreaming of what was and what will be.