What I Didn'T Say

I want to be your favorite fairy Shining brightly just for You I'd dance, if only you would ask But of course, you never Do Clap for me, if you can spare the time, Because my magic might just Fade I could never be your number one, and I'm So sorry for trying I realize I must be a junkie I just can't give up On you I should quit, but just one more hit Is something sweet to get Me through I poured my tears down into mason jars Like fireflies so you could see Then maybe you could help, so I could Stop hurting me And with this bucketful of tears, I Wish I could drown your World I wish I was someone better than Yours truly, a most pathetic Girl When will I ever learn that it won't ever Be the same For you, when they all love you, and they All know your name But me, I am forgettable, because I try much too hard To be the person you might want to see I'm all green eyes and jealous Glances Always present, always there And I'm caught up in this hurricane, invisible But all too real, and I'm bound to hit rock bottom when no one's Left to catch me at the endings Of this tunnel I cried out to make you notice, but My sobs were left unheard When I whimpered, you came running, but I never spat out all my answers I crave For you to hold me in your arms, like the sack Of bones I am, so you can help me Drain all of this pain Before the wounds take over me, and swallow Me up whole I tried to tell you what I needed when I left these words behind And you never tried to read them, even Though they were the key into My mind You can't see how much I need you, how much I Need you to be Something like a guardian, a protector To me But if we're being honest, we know My dreams cannot come true You won't be the one to save me, no Matter how badly I want You to Really, it's not your fault; I put myself Through all this hell And even though I'm grown now, I still Wish I was Tinkerbell It’s been tough to admit this, but I won’t Lie to save my face There’s nothing you or I could do to lift This heavy weight off of my Name I just thought you had the right to know exactly What I didn’t say When you heard my plea and came to me, asking “Is everything okay today?”