Ways of Living Ii

falling backwards into what one thinks is a net laying low & waiting, only to find that no net is lying there for you to fall---in response to this situation, one closes the eyes & tries to find a way back to before this falling happened, recoiling into an earlier place when things seemed to be better & wanting to stay there, not move, stay stationary & tread water for what seems like an eternity, said individual becomes weaker with each passing day--- as the stress piles up, so does the inability to cope with what is actually at hand.