Unanswerd Questions
Because a child was evolved, who I now no longer see
Still it remains a matter unsolved yeah that is a mystery
Never really knowing to whether he is or is not mine
And to think yeah this year he would have turned nine
I took her to court for access and saw him at the day centre
But all that caused was more stress and me losing my temper
I'm not the kind to just scarper, I wanted to make a statement
Tell me If I am or not his farther, I wanted the acknowledgment
I took it further to try to resolve issues by going to mediation
But just left a case of the blues and yet another confrontation
Looking back over my shoulder I wonder was it worth it though
I'm told he will look for me when he gets older , I don't think so
I was told that my farther, he never really wanted to know me
Well you know I tryed my best that I could not to repeat history
But I mean at least his name was actually on my birth certificate
Though with her always felt like it was a game of devils advercut
Even though we were not together was not told about the birth
How could someone be so cold?, I ask is it all a child’s life is worth
There was so much arguing in this relationship between her and me
And her using him as a bargaining chip, when ever she wanted money
It never really mattered though, even If I had the best of intensions
And even now you know there’s still so many unanswered questions
My brief and the courts they just seemed to side with her on the day
Just disbelief, and mixed thoughts, the hardest thing was walking away
Written(2004) a way of clearing my head a bit
Though still feels like an open chapter, with so many unanswerd questions
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