Two Sides

lets flip a coin you and I to see what happens as time goes by if it lands on heads i turn away if its tails then i will stay you dont know what this means to me going back and fourth is driving me crazy should i run and hide away or should i stand strong and take this pain watching as the coin is tossed in the air where it lands is causing me fear i dont know what to do so i stare in fright hoping it lands right tears fall down my face yet i smile as an illusion of the pain inside im dying as each second goes by screaming so loud in my head saying "why???" the coin is starting to fall i hold my breath through it all it bounced off the floor and my heart clenched tight im hoping with all of my might this is my fault i take full blame i shouldnt have started this game but inside i know why i did my heart wouldnt let me fold so i went all in the coin landed on the ground doing its final spin round and round then judgement fell and my heart........ (old poem) .