To Sink Back

I want to sink back Into a life I despise. It would be so easy, Just let it all consume me. I’m craving all the empty feeling. All the sleepless nights. All the restless days. I thrived in this darkness. Blossomed in myself. But afraid to see life off my shelf. I want to scream out, Strike out, Take out, But never break out. I want to lie on my inviting bed of nails, Because I know they’ll never tell All the thoughts That bleed from my ears, All the fears That break free with my tears. I want the plague I inflicted on myself, My nightmare curtain of self-doubt. I want to hide within myself.