To Be a Captive

How it feels to be a captive To be confined within 4 walls You feel life is not worth to live And there is no friend for you Always scared as you don’t know what is going to happen next Your brain is always thinking of what to do Feeling unsafe and never at rest Your confidence dies within you You sometimes think what went wrong What bad did you do to others And you can’t think anything for long As you sit lonely without anyone for you Your trust has scattered for and with everyone Now you are living in a fantasy world You don’t listen to orders by anyone Your freedom is wanted by you You want someone to help you become normal Someone who understands your feelings and you You just have enough space to curl And you want god beside you To be open in the light for a short time and mostly in the dark You don’t know what the world’s treasures are In the black the whole time you lark And from outside you are barred Then you understand the real meaning of liberty And you know what right and justice means You get to know your mistakes and think whether you’ll be like this for 20 or 30 And wish you could go back in time and correct yourself You want god to help you and not people As he is the only one you have faith in You ask him to make you stop shake and shiver And hope you live one more time