Times Have Changed

There was a time when any thoughts with consequent emotions occupied me Conversing was a breeze! Writing about anything was far from difficult Today, I spend moment after moment evaluating and reevaluating when it comes to writing I enjoyed speaking I enjoyed people Today, I diligently search and gather whatever speck of opinion I have toward anything “This” is how I feel but why? How do I even feel? What happened? What do I want? I just want to be okay… I want to enjoy people and not be afraid to say “too much” – Whatever that is I’m cautious of what I say and do because I’m sensitive emotionally I say little and do little Today, I have less mean-spirited confrontations My kindness and generosity is still the same When people laugh, I don’t laugh Should I? When people have open-talk I’m hesitant to share because I fear people will misjudge me by my words And disregard Me What do I do about this? IT IS NOT as simple as, “it doesn’t matter what people think” Because I KNOW that “it” does