This Battle In My Head

Why do I feel so alone? Why must I have this feeling, when His love is shown? Why am I crying? I hate how I deal with everything thrown at me. Why must I feel like there's nothing I can achieve? I know He's here, and I know He cares, but I always fear that no one's there. I feel as if everyone will leave me. Almost as if no one loved me. When I know everyone cares... It's just hard to show, I just wish they were fair. I cry almost every night, thinking of how to die, of how this came into my sight, how to say goodbye. I'm sorry. I know this isn't right. I've just been lonely, all I want to do is to stop this fight.