The Elephant In the Room

Believe no word I say; Just watch what I do. No matter how I try I can't hide it from you. Ashamed of every bite, I starve in your eyes. But when you turn around I choke on french fries. I can't hide from the world That pure ecstasy I feel when in my mouth I cram A cream puff, a box of cereal, a gallon of ice cream, a tray of brownies... I break! My heart aches. If I had the guts I'd eat only my scrambled brains And drink nothing but my curdled blood. But I'm a coward So to numb the pain I devour my self-esteem, Cover my eyes, And avoid mirrors. The larger I become The less of me you see. I blend into the room; I become the couch. Maybe this is what I hoped for, But I don't know for sure. I'm the elephant in the room-- I would leave this hell But I don't fit through the door.