The Cost

The cost of loving you has been very high and will be for some time to come as we weave in and out of each other’s lives. I loved seeing you today, it calmed me, removed my fears and made me feel whole. During our times together it costs me nothing to touch you and care for you instead paying me back over and over. But upon leaving you the high cost of separation comes due and I pay with tears, fears, doubts and uncertainties, this cycle repeating over and over. It’s amazing how my heart gets torn and worn out, but mends itself later so I can keep on loving you. Only God is capable of repairing my heart so many times over the last 35 years. I am so thankful it’s even possible, otherwise, I don’t think I’d be alive now, nor would our love still be allowed to bind us together even when we’re not. For I have loved you across time and distance and I pray for our lives to become one and the distance between us to be none. I will pay any cost to love you. Some day I’ll find out if you’re willing to pay the price to just be with me so we can love and be together for the rest of our lives. 2010