Steady

I am steady trying to figure out what I did so wrong. Oh where did I go wrong. I wonder this everyday as I fight to stay strong. They got me in the system fighting for dear life. I am steady trying to bite my tongue and not say a word. I want to get out and be free for good. I am about to be 18, yet I am struggling to make it in life. Can it be that I am not going to survive. Tia always told me that only the strong survive, is that why she died? Steady trying to get by and survive, but is that possible in this life. I am steady trying to figure out why the state took my girls, they took them from me, as if someone else besides their own mom can raise them. Man I swear I am steady trying to figure out life.