Sorry
Doesn't matter how hard I try
to be number one
I'm always going to be number
two
Number one doesn't count
Number one doesn't matter
Number two is always going to
be fatter
And always at the bottom of
the ladder
I try so hard to be the one
But then someone else comes
along
I can't find the strength to do it
much longer
I've had to much pain from
always being two
All I ever wanted was to be the
one
But this will never happen in
this life
I'm not a strong person
I haven't done anything at all
I've just gone through life each
day being a beaten wife
My heart breaks each and
every day
I can't take it much longer and
don't have the strength to stay
around
To find the correct words to use
Just makes my mind more
confused
I've been physically and
mentally hurt beyond repair
And this has left me so dam
scared
Just sitting in the edge waiting
for my wings to open and fly
Soaring the highest mountains
before I hit the ground
Buried deep beneath the
ground
No one would ever know if not
around
The people I leave behind
Most likely want mind as the
have pretended to be kind
My children will hurt most of all
But at least they would have
known I gave it my all
Life for some will go one
Smiles and laughter will be
heard all around
But for me I would have been
set free
Selfish I know but what else
could I do
Tears fill my eyes most of the
day
My mind is to busy for this
human race
Being so broken is to over
whelming to go on
This is why I'm singing Gods
song
I've struggled for years to get
the help I need
But professionals just close the
door and say I'm a lost cause
Another reason I'm always
number two
That's the difference between
me and you
Copyright © Belynda Holst | Year Posted 2013
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