Slipping Away

Anxious and afraid I’ll run out of time Betrayed so by illusions I held dear Concerned with life’s approaching finish line Disappointed deeply with my shortcomings Envious secretly of other’s accomplishments Forgiving towards myself never been my forte Guilt I can’t manage with a mere 24-hour day Helpless feelings linger and are commonplace Insecure at how time slips through my fingers Jealous of those who have their act together Keeping up is but a lofty dream I aspire to Looking back I could have done so much more Mooning over regrets of what could have been Now time’s running out with so little of it left Overwhelmed I struggle to catch up Peaceful and not panic is how I’d love to feel Quality time to be creative is what I seek Reasoning with time is quite pretentious Severed and sad that time is so elusive Terrified that I won’t finish all I’ve set out to do Under stress to perform and leave behind my legacy Vulnerability at the heart of my very being Worried that I won’t be all that I can be X celling is what I aspired but how time got away Youth of my squandered days no use regretting Zany thoughts I govern to feel occasionally zen AP: 2nd place 2020, Honorable Mention 2021 Submitted on February 7, 2020 for ABECEDARIAN CONTEST sponsored by CAREN KRUTSINGER and June 5, 2019 for contest GOING DEEP WITHIN AN EMOTION sponsored by SHERI FRESONKE HARPER - RANKED 2ND Originally posted on June 5, 2019