Secret I Keep

Secret I Keep All these years hiding. Been keeping the secret that's lying. Can't forgive myself what i have been doing Declined the love that you're giving. Everyday i weep in despair. For my love for you, i did not share. Gave the best you can, but did not see. Has pretended, that you were there for me. I was blinded and insensitive. Just how long can you forgive? Kind of curse i feel like hell. Living in sorrow it's hard to tell. Memories of you it's all i have. No one could give the thing called 'love'. Only you and you alone. Pretending you were here inside this home. Quit is not my thinking. Restore the past, why can i not bring? Since you've been gone it's never been me. Tried to be happy i pretended to be. Unleash this nightmare, oh go away. Vanish! It's all i pray. Whisper in silence in where you lay. Xanthorrhoea with you to stay. Yearning for you cannot wait longer. Zeal of your love and i feel better.