Pushing the Edge

I helplessly indulge myself with so much hate I could even puke My hands tremble as I hold the phone against my ear I push the right buttons and wait for the ring to go off It feels like forever because you never want to answer I could hear the heavens screaming this overwhelming hatred inside The fires of hell burns a reflection in my own eyes Do you need me to spell it out to put some sense in you? I hate you and everything we do Love was such a wonderful feeling for innocence And yet this tainted heart of mine can no longer pretend I took a deep dive into the unknown when I got burnt Your lies destroy everything beautiful in my world My eyes drown in a turbulent flow of hot tears I should taste your blood to conquer all the misery I can no longer utter sweetness to your ears We are one reality I bite with remorse You make me scribble all the wrong things You push everything to the edge You make me want to suffocate my breath And yet you are still the love of my life.