Pain

PAIN It was another tormented night Hurting you was a hobby The same old lines The same old reasons Nothing’s change except The pain is getting worse Those words again Like a double edge sword Either way of how I say it It hurts so much the same way As yesterday Those ending messages that night Hanging you to nowhere The questions that leaves you breathless Thinking if it’s worth trying Or simply give up That pathetic attitude for million times As you remember Funny, cause you find it hard Tracing the reasons behind As what you always does Be in silence Those tiring provocative questions Challenging your patience and your feelings Will you stay or walk away Just to end this pantomime again? I’m sorry for that night I was tired and unreasonable I say words I didn't mean But I know that once uttered It cannot be erased That was just my Unjustifiable pride by the way I’m sorry for that phrase- Again I’m sorry for 1001 times now, I am giving you all the reasons To be mad Because I am guilty for being Mean most of the times -But I love you still no matter what I’m sorry for those hanging messages The truth is- I was just exhausted & have fallen sleep I can’t think and I am illogical But I know it will never be an excuse I’m sorry for my attitude For I know it hurts you so much I’ll be surprise if not Because I know how much I meant to you I’m sorry for you have to feel that way Feelings could turn into a beast That could crushed your heart and your soul Leaving you- Lifeless I’m sorry for all these things But I tell you one thing To know that you are in pain- Tears my heart away Each morning as I wake up I remember that nightmare And it hurts me when I realized I wasn't dreaming…#