Once I Believe

Nothing's here I have a gun and empty bottles to play a tune But i hold myself inside the box One gun on hand Depression is crawling trough me Like a ghost i scream and get no attention A story full of joy I see it fade away in time I realize this life is gone to waste As the clock ticks The words slowly fade Suicidal instincts I sure love the smell of fall Im not waiting for tomorrow Yet i desire it Hoping for a warmth sun rising I get cold dead night and moon to vow When all seems hopeless For the time i know the devil have me Humiliated in front of thousands Thousand insects i once called friends Family left me long ago Solitude is quite admirable Save the prayers mother Stop screaming father Welcome home depression I surely missed you For now im alone in the room All i hear is empty bottles sing I sure want to die tomorrow But now is when i hold this gun I shake to fear Fear i will pull this trigger I deny i lost it all But sure don't believe in god now Please give me some hope Open your eyes im not alone Tell me you heard my empty prayers Please make this devil stop taunting me A smile to the darkness Just like good old times I love hating this feeling Simply because is the only thing i fear Death Will you help me? I lost the meaning of this day Found the meaning on the gun I hate the choices we've made so far Reclaim lost hope Surely i will miss the hands of the wind Numb state were strength shoots the gun The devil has me now Im a sinner Find me on my worst act My blood painted the walls All i see is the darkness consuming my body As im dragged to hell As you sleep tonight I fade ti'll tomorrow Hopefully i died Once more welcome tomorrow Just another nightmare...