Now Here I Sit

once again i didn't say no. now here i sit,unable to dechiper the many emotions cruising through my soul. i gave up wine,after thirteen years of "marriage" to that bottle. but for the life of me,im powerless against passion and lust! now here i sit,wondering why he doesn't call me. what would we talk about? i gave him the only side of me that is not connected to my heart and soul. now here i sit,ashamed and very alone. now here i sit....