My Pleasure Ends

From day one, I've problem, I can't remember words heart by heart. I'm not expert for making a mountain out of a mole hill to bullseye dart. i 've no planning in past or for future, i live up to date living in present, I count always pennies and fight to save extra for emergency short, my nature is generous, like to welcome others for my pleasure ends. I don't pressurize my muscles before to go to bed to squeeze my kids. Mum says, nobody can take anything away then why do I remember?