My Minds Unknown World

I needed some inspiration From all the pain and devastation Following me everywhere Trails of loss and despair Hung over me like a cloud My joyfulness was not allowed Pushed aside by this bad weather That clung to me now and never Wanted to give me a chance To enjoy a sweet lifes dance Rain kept pouring down on me All I knew was misery Daily my eyes were tear soaked Thinking happiness was all a hoax I just wanted it to end So I started to descend Into my own little world Where joy and smiles always twirled In my head where I got lost Never knowing it would cost My sanity to slip away Now you'll find me everyday Curled up tightly in a ball Rocking up against the wall No more pain for me to show Inside a world nobody knows Locked away in my own thoughts A real life no longer fought