My Longing

10/26/12 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Deep into the world of mystery I find my heart buried Until from tear-filled eyes my mind pours deep water A sprinkled light so distant somehow comes to view, But I am stuck in miserable muddle and I cannot reach Shadows of regret and doubt create blockades around me Cutting me clear off from the world and its inhabitants As the hourglass pours its sand into my glistening eye Sending me pleasant yet cruel dreams of the impossible I see in a mind’s eye the fresh green grasslands in breeze I smell roses and hollyhocks mixed with light, delicate rain My spinning head is soothed in make-believe birdsong, Though in reality I am profoundly crunched in filth I gaze at laurels and lilies lapping in cool, sifting ponds Beckoning my yearning soul But there is no way to you! If only I had been born in another life, Yet even then I would always yearn for something more I bask in hope—only in vain For the hour glass smothers me in its salty truth Burying my mind away from the faintest light Shadows of regret will always be my obstacle As the hour glass blinds all leakage of hope -inspired by the song “Sehnsucht" or “Longing"