My Heart Weeps

Theres a part of me that no one sees Where my heart weeps And my blood seeps Like tears runnin' down my cheeks As I'm thinkin' back to love that I've lost 'Cuz it's taken from me such great cost I ask the Lord if He can afford To take this burden off of my front porch The pain I feel is so sureal I almost welcome it 'cuz I cant deal And the chemicals pull up my shield But they're blocking my attempts to heal The needle takes it's place on the throne I look around, Im all alone I have no place to call my own I have no faith, I have no home The future seems so so bleack Am I sick? Or am I weak? Can I get back on my own two feet? Can I walk this road? Can I take the heat? I miss the chaos I hate so much I base my life on it, my crutch My excuse to live as such I only see what I can touch