Misery Writes a New Episode

Many years I suffer alone Waking with hope everyday Trying to act normal While my sanity slips way It seems like dark clouds are always here with me Its like if I was curse To live a life of misery There have been so many days There was no sun in the sky And there were times I wanted to tell the world good bye all my friends are kind to me And I don’t tell of the pain I see Because no one can ever help When the enemy lives inside of me I feel the kindness of my friends And all the love that they send And I said that I’m happy While behind the keyboard I pretend My life is like wave in the sea From a distance you see serenity But when you look up close Will see jagged rocks stabbing me Once love look so beautiful But the girl didn't have a soul So she just leaves me to die Alone in this cruel world Since then my life has decline While my heart slowly erode And very day after Misery writes a new episode I awake every morning Lone in my bed And don’t want to get up Feels heavy like lead I wonder if she’s thinking of me Or if my memories she holds no more My life is full of wealth But my heart are so poor What my future hold No one can ever tell And if I don’t find heaven Then will remain in hell True love is purely magical Hope I find at the end of the road And if I never find it Misery writes a new episode