Looking Back On the Bad

i sit here on the tracks everything has changed i try to sort out these new facts i was his number two I didn't know But now i do and its time to look for someone new today my old teddy provided no comfort so im here instead one of the few times im truly hurt im looking back on the bad he was my number one And now I'm so sad i run my fingers through the gravel tears rolling down my cheeks my world is slowly starting to unravel im looking back on the bad but all i see is him i think of what i thought i had I remember his sweet kisses Tender moments I hope he Forever misses I guess I never truly showed how I felt How each time he warped me in his arms I would start to melt I'm looking back in the bad And I'm ready to die Ive wasted my trust And I'm wondering why