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Living with Bipolar

How can I describe bipolar to you?
Well I’ll let you know when I can describe it to myself too

All I can say is that I often do things that I know I’ll regret
I often say things that I wish others will forget

I switch between reckless apathy and overwhelming misery
My brain isn’t right is all the doctors can tell me
That makes sense, because I often feel a tad bit crazy

Trying to manage this disorder is the hardest test I’ve ever faced
More so after discovering that for as much progress I make, it can all be erased
I’m tired of trying to explain why I am the way I am
I’m tired of the inevitable fall every time I try to take a stand

I’m tired of being massively depressed and having obsessive thoughts about ending my life
I’m tired of having such excessive energy, agitation, anxiety and delusions of grandeur for stretches of time, night after night

I’m just tired, it feels like I’ve lived an entire lifetime in my twenty six years

People tell me why don’t you just make yourself feel better, just make it go away
Believe me when I say this: If I could make it stop, I would’ve done so yesterday 

Copyright © Christopher Stones

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  1. Date: 12/16/2011 6:37:00 AM
    I enjoyed reading your poetry this morning Christopher. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. I am going to see if I can write something for a couple contests this weekend. Hope you find the inspiration to do the same. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and yours. Love, Carol

  1. Date: 12/15/2011 6:33:00 PM
    Christopher...What an excellent poem! You really describle the affliction well...I hope you can lesson the pain of this awful disorder. Hugs :)

    Stones Avatar Christopher Stones
    Date: 12/15/2011 10:11:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Thank you :) Everyday is a lesson, that's the outlook I've adopted in recent years. I've realized that because of this disorder I've been forced to look inside myself to recognize my inner demons and work through them. I once thought that everything was hopeless, but that's just not true. I may never be rid of bipolar, but I have learned from it.
  1. Date: 12/15/2011 3:51:00 PM
    I feel your pain, Christopher. Have the drs tried medication? I've heard that there are a few meds out there that can help bi-polar disorder. I wish you all the best. Kim

    Stones Avatar Christopher Stones
    Date: 12/15/2011 4:53:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Thank you very much. I am on several medications, but they are mainly to balance the mood swings, unfortunately their is no known cure. Some days are better than others. I just have to hold onto the hope that I can work with this and manage it. I'm in a much better place now than I was several years ago. I just try to count my blessings and take it one day at a time.