Let Me Explain

Let me try to explain this mess life is a pain in my ass and it has me stressed sometimes I want to quit, give cause I can't take no more probably would if it wasn't for the ones I adore they care for me believe in me some reason they something good in me so I can't let them down, can't throw that love away I need to believe like they believe that I will have my day But I looked at the sky, no longer blue, its all cloudy and Grey I am on the pursuit of happiness but is this the price I have to pay Every one is struggling, I know its not just me myself and I but being stuck in this rut has me feeling like life is quickly passing me bye No girl, no kids, no one to miss me when I'm gone reason why I write, to leave my thoughts for when I'm done and my heart is so scarred I fail to see how hit beats I use to be excited to come across someone new, now I worry with every person I meet Are you going to be the one? The one that brings me down? I'm not afraid of death. Worse things than being six feet underground Like being forgotten, or never really loved I know I'm going to hell. Never was suited to be sent above But I did my best to make people smile All I wanted was to see people happy saying that it sounds stupid, but not in the mood to hide being sappy So if words are ever spoken for me. Know l loved all who loved me just wished when I looked in the mirror I could see what you see But I guess that's a human flaw. Never knowing how good we really can be But this is just me venting, getting things off my chest trying to explain, a little, why my life's a mess.