seeps from my pores......
i can still smell you on my skin
in my hair;
you're every where
you're nowhere to be found
like you died
im still haunted by every single though of you
from our very first kiss to our last
its burned into my mind
you made it like that...
touched me so deeply
when i looked into your eyes it felt real
was it real ?
or my false delusions yet again
you walked away its time for me to do the same
i wont promise i wont look back
its hard enough to just take the first step
questions blur my vision
i gave you everything i could
and it still wasn't enough to make you stay ?
was she really better than me ?
or did you love her more then me?
did you love me at all ?
i wasted my time putting in effort
for you to leave me in the dead of night
i never cheated
i never lied
i always loved you
i always did you just right
i even now pray for you to come back to me
to feel me like you once did to touch me like im yours
i wish i could cry
but yet i can't
the hole you made in my heart
is a constant ache
thats what i get for loving with an open heart
for trusting a man too much
I don't know if it was a good thing to have met you;
so drawn to you i was
like a moth to flame
i experienced love in its realist form
and for that im thankfull
but it also didn't last left me broken
into millions of pieces
i don't know if love is real
or maybe it all must end ...
or maybe i been broken and you just held me together
that i may never know ................
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