Just a Crush

Is this just a crush, Why am I never enough. Is it really true, Am I capable of feeling love? How can I tell, From the hugs and shoves. From you putting me through hell. You say you don't like me but, I still wish the signs were right. Why did I say no, So many nights ago. Though I had always seen the light. That light in you, That always shines through. It changed my perspective and point of view. And clouded my very sight. As I felt myself cry, I asked myself why, I fell short of the truth, And decided to lie. About how I felt, Everytime I saw you. Were those feelings always there, Or is this just something new....?