Yesterday was innocence,
I was healthy, vital, fine
Today’s diagnosis meeting
Said my tissue’s not benign
I don't feel changed; I am the same
Stress causes strength to be spent
In endless spiraling wondering...
About my future events
Are changes imposed? Warranted?
Should I tell my friends and reveal?
How can I think and talk about
What to me is not yet real?
Intrusive tests scheduled each day
I submit 'tho I abhor
Technicians' tough and callous ways
My fears they simply ignore
I submit without a murmur
As physicians plan and direct
A regimen lacking nurture
Radiation’s killing affect
Destroy cancer cells precisely
Leave good ones whole and intact
Systems prodded and jolted
Uncertain how to react
Funny 'tho; the sun's still bright,
I inhale smells of grass to calm
The flowers bloom, people come to love
As though to lessen the harm
I discover a legion of friends
Processing thoughts the same
Pondering thru uncertainties
Wondering who there is to blame?