In the Mind of Mental Illness

Crying Loudly but its all in my head, The expression you see is a smile instead, But if you look deep in my eyes they will tell you a tale About how my appearance became so frail. For the people around me I put on an act, To hide the truth of control my life lacked. Inside I am weak, Helpless and cold, I feel Ive no-one to comfort me,no-one to hold. I pace up, down and around my bed, Trying to clear my head, But inside my mind where the voices hide I listened to what they said. The noises I hear are the voices I fear, I cannot drown out the sound. Palms sweating and my heart is racing, Collapsing to the ground. Chest tightening...I cannot breathe, My visions turning black, Here again on my own suffering another Panic Attack!