In My Heart
He's broken into my heart
Climbed all the walls of my self protection
So precariously constructed
Past my guard against a possibility of being wounded and betrayed
My soul laid bare before him to crush or embrace
If I told him,
How will he react?
I value our friendship more than he may even know
So I keep quiet
With one glance from his charming blue eyes,
My world turned into a spinning spiral
But I am absolutely powerless to stop it all
this madness of a fairy tale story
Unfolding right before my eyes
I'm falling hard and fast,
It feels as if I've jumped into an endless free fall
When will I land?
Where will I fall?
It's so unclear to me at this moment
What all this might transpire into with time
Does he think about me
As much as I think about him?
What if my hopes for him are shallow?
Am I being biased and blinded?
These are the questions that haunt me everyday
So no confession escapes my lips still
My once seemingly innocent friendship with him
Has quickly transpired into a fascinating,
Though frustrating,
One-sided love affair
His mysterious and shy demure has rendered me captive
Alluring me to a place of no return
Why is this so difficult?
If only my walls had been higher,
Thicker
But then I ask myself,
"Maybe, I really want him there?"
Though my answer may scare me slightly,
I can't hide from myself,
I know I am now
Madly and hopelessly in love
With this sweet boy
I want to tell him so badly
But arrows of self-doubt invade my thoughts
He couldn't like me,
Not possibly
So I stay quiet still
But the one thing that matters the most is this,
I hope he will still be there,
Waiting,
To catch me when I fall
Copyright © Crystal Cross | Year Posted 2010
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