I'M Ugly

I’m Ugly Ijust do not understand on why I can’t never get a girlfriend I go to school and try to talk to a girl But she end up dissing me Talking about me behind my back Calling me ugly And when my buddies tell me the news I get discourage And when I come home I go to the bathroom And look into the mirror trying to see if it’s true The mirror breaks I started to cry because I’m ugly And I cannot fix my face I never wish to be this ugly But I guess my mother lie to me Because she said I was handsome I try to look the best that I can be 13But it seems to be worthless because none of the girls are impress They always go for them boys that’s popular and looks the best But they never go for them boys that looks less attractive on the outside But more attractive on the inside Sometimes I wish that girls were more mature on what they look for From a man but I guess they will always pass the good men by Sometimes I ask God why he made me so ugly Why couldn’t he make me fine as hell so all the girls can love me then But I guess I will always be dreaming because no girls love me And when I see the other dudes date the girls I love or fantasize I get mad because they are only going with them for sex But they usually have success on doing it Come back to school the next day and see the girls I desire pregnant I hate when Valentines comes around Because I don’t have no girl to give a gift to or make love to Watching couples make love through my window Thinking like damn why that couldn’t be me Man I’m sick of being lonely 14 Sometimes I wish I had a girl like Brooke Valentine A smart, pretty, and sweet girl that fears God But I know this will never be true because I will never find a girl just like her But **** it let me stop crying Because someday I will find me a girl that’s perfect for me And I don’t know why my reader is laughing but this is how I feel at times I wish I had a girl as a friend that can encourage me at times to build my self-esteem back up But I guess it will never happen because my self-esteem will always be low until I finally get that one girl I desire