If Only

If only it didn't just take a second to get to heaven The devil's smiling, bet he didn't tell you it's the fast track to hell My smile's only temporary, but so is this life sentence I've been given I never was asked if I wanted to start living. So I'm.. Hanging by a thread My sanity is laughing at me In the mirror, staring at the person Who seems to be wandering Empty and lost, like a penny on tails Unlucky and left behind, story of a person Such as mine. My confusion is confused Piece of mind tattered and loose The love song from my heart, sings to the wind Carrying on, I think it's never to end Because it winds like the river Occasionally winks and sparkles Off a sunset reflection, searching for a tomorrow But sometimes deep blue Sad, like the pulsing veins Of a heartbroken poet Insane in the brain. If only you could see me, then maybe. If only you could save me, yeah then maybe. Then maybe Tears wouldn't run down the face and Hurry away from the pain in the eyes Of a person with nightmares And teardrop filled skies. A person who dreams of a better tomorrow But memories are the chains Bearing back her heart And holding the jagged pieces together From falling apart. I'm lonely Do you see my face? I'm trying To get a grip nowadays Yeah you could help me Get me out of this place If only, yeah if only. Hoping one day another Will hear her song through the breeze And linger back to the place Where she kneels hopelessly Desired to be glued together Band aid, or tacked She just wants to become whole again And never look back. Wants to trampled by love Stampeded to the beat Of love and loyalty Someone she can keep. Her broken smile will reign And she'll rip stanzas from her soul Trickling toxic tragedies Painting pictures in your eyes Watch her sorrows like a movie On replay in your mind. Her theatre is her torture chamber Lashing you down to your raw memories Don't look around, don't hide Don't let your mistakes trouble your mind Your blood is flowing And you've still got time To change the future Is to change your mind Maybe, then maybe. You could save me After you save yourself Then you could help me I've got nobody else, if only. Yeah If only.