If Is Not a Word

late at night i close my eyes and imagine our life all over to start i'd erase all the times i made you cry and then all the things i said to hurt you i'd take back the pain and the emptiness that i left you all alone with for sure i'd rewind the lies and betrayel fast forwarding through all the abuse i'd replace the items and money i stole from you even buy you new shoes i'd turn your frown upside down and leave you with a permanant smile take you out on the lake and keep you laughing until we both fell asleep i'd grant your wishes to all come true despite how outregeous and place a dollar under your pillow every time you were extra good i'd pay attention to all your worries never saying that your stupid i'd hold your hand and kiss your cheek and always make you feel safe when the storm comes into town and the thunder begins to roll i'll hide you under the covers and help you count to ten we'd watch fireworks and hunt for easter baskets bake cookies for santa claus all this and more i'd do for you if i'd had one more chance pretend will become real and the past will never haunt us life will leave us with inner peace not regrets or bitterness (if my mother was alive i know this is what she would be wishing for her and me)