I Wanted You To Leave Now Your Never Coming Back

Before I was born you said I wasnt yours and burned down our house and when I was born one glance changed your mind cause I looked so much like you When I was a baby you wrote me letters from a strange place with the name I wasnt named even though you wanted me to I remember waiting at the window for you never to come and when ide call you'd say you were sick again I remember when you were sick I visited you in a new place and you made me a bracelet out of some sort of craft material it fell apart shortly after I left even though you fixed it 3 times already when I was there you told me you were sick but slowly getting better and that you loved me I remember when your cat attacked me and you didnt believe me I remember thinking mom knows im not a lair why dont you when I use to visit you you never knew what to cook me or buy me to wear so I lived off of cheddar cheese and cereal and candy and ide wear this hidious purple outfit with snowflakes that I hated I couldnt wait till I grew outa it which took awhile cause you bought it to big When I was 13 I was hospitalized and you would visit me and you and mom got back together and you moved back in you moved from a weird house with other men who were all twitchy and some of them were dying you started drinking more and more and began to be more and more physically abusive I hated you I wanted you gone and when I called the cops on you they looked at me like I was crazy and in turn I was placed on pins and labeled a problom child and when we went to meet with my po you cried big crocidile tears when the scary man said things you didnt want to hear so while we were gone you packed up and left and I was happy but I hated you for years after when I was 17 we were shortly back in touch But I still wasnt ready to stop hating you yet when I was 18 I found out you were in the hospital dying of cancer so I went to see you hooked up to every machine and more I told you I forgive you that its ok they told me you couldnt hear me that you were in a coma I went to visit you when you were outa the hospital I reminded you that I forgive that its ok and you said no its not on october 13th 09 you died an I never stopped crying so much was unsaid I couldnt handle it so I tryed to kill my self cause I needed to talk to you again evn if it meant leaving everything behind I wanted you to leave now your never coming back