I Look At You

why do i sit here all scared and stuff if you asked me why? i'd say i don't know is this the quiet before the storm? if it is, lets get on with it because i don't like it. i should not be scared of anything after what i have gone thru these half-passed of lately. darling, help me to understand how you can be so loyal when i am so unloveable i want to be very, beautiful for you. please, please make everything alright and do all the things that you do to make me SIMMER DOWN. so, now i do lay me down to sleep and i keep creeping closer to you all night as you sleep as if you haven't a care in the world and i just worry. to my beloved, janetta